Sparrow has grown old

Sparrow has grown old;
his wings are heavy and his voice not as bright.
The cool wind of fall ruffles hair and feathers
as we sit together by the lake.

Turning to me, he says:
"Brother, even the sky will die,
and the wind itself is not a thing eternal.
But you, if you remain righteous and faithful,
you will see Paradise forever."

Putting my arm around him and holding him tight,
I choke out my words:
"Please, do not speak of such a thing!
I cannot bear to see you go.
You who are so beautiful and so free in the sky,
I do not wish to see cold in the ground."

"I know that such a thought is painful,
but I cannot escape my destiny.
Do not worry, though, for my children you will love,
and their children after me;
you will always have brothers and sisters in us."

Rain Haiku / In Its Wake

Rain Haiku

After the rain -
the birds exultant
and the smell of worms



In Its Wake

cascading,
grass fading,
summer to fall -
time does not wait
to throw you the ball

Forever in Your Finger

You have Forever in Your finger!
Light bursts forth from a thought;
the merest syllable of a word
formed galaxies before Your eyes.

There is no place that is not touched
by the immensity of Your goodness,
nor is there a world that does not know
of Your great Love.

Orgy of Song

You can find me flapping in every wing,
shining in the rays of the setting sun,
scattered in the storm winds
like so many poplar seeds,
white and fluffy and covering all.

Each breath is shared by bird and beast,
flower and tree.
I breathe you, sisters and brothers;
let us love each other as one being of praise,
an orgy of song and heartbeats
proclaiming Him Creator of All.

Love is the Melody

Is there a haiku in a breath,
is there a sonnet in a sigh?
Life is a poem and a song,
and we can choose the chords.
Love is the melody,
sweet and never dissonant,
and it makes all songs worthy.

Reset [2015/2016?]

Jehovah, if only you would come down to me
and hit the reset button!
Send me back to the beginning of the game,
and fill my inventory with so many power-ups
to see me through each and every level.

You have set down the variables and the subroutines,
you are Admin over all,
and yet the majority of players deny your existence.
Shall the code say to the programmer:
"Why did you write me this way?"
Shall it not rather follow the scripts it has been given,
and acknowledge its Creator?

Jehovah, my code has been corrupted,
and I have wandered to where I do not belong.
Satan noclips his way through the maps,
offering God Mode to any who will worship him;
he offers what he does not have,
and no player is he able to save.
As a final boss he is found pathetic
before your great power.

Full of Love

To the tune of 'Only You' by Yazoo


Seems like only yesterday
that I become a stray
going reckless

But now that I know that I must change
my ways rearrange
and stop being feckless

If there's one person I should serve
keep on a straight path and do not swerve
Jehovah God above,
full of Love.

Will he take me back again
after all of my sin
and restore me?

They say He is quick to forgive
that He wants all to live...
does He adore me?

If there's one person I should serve
keep on a straight path and do not swerve
Jehovah God above,
full of Love.

Everywhere I turn (April 2019)

Everywhere I turn,
there is your face.
Everywhere I step,
I walk into your embrace.

Were I to climb the tallest mountain,
you would stand beside me on the summit.
Were I to sink down into the ocean's depths,
you would be beside me on the ocean floor.
Were I to fly far, far away
(for my heart has wings),
you would see me off at my departure
and greet me upon my arrival.

Everywhere, everywhere,
you are to be found.

Earnest petition to the Unending Light (2015?)

Earnest petition to the Unending Light:
"Hello, O Great One, please end this night."

"The time is not yet, be patient and true."
"But my heart is stricken, and I long for the New."

"Noted, my dear one, but I cannot rush.
So many to enlighten, so many to touch."

"Then dry all my tears, Lord, and fill me with joy."
"My spirit will strengthen, my Love be a buoy."

is there a point

is

there a

point to all

of this verbiage

"no"

is

there a

point to all

of the birds singing

"yes"

there is a blue

there is sun
     warmth now too

shriveled (skeletal trees
  come back to l(if)e
    ) buds appear

there is a blue
above me and you

Astral Father

Astral Father, come take me away,
set me free from this shell,
your love to obey.

Set a change in my heart;
let sorrow's furrows be filled,
that I may make a new start.

May the glorious day not be far
when you sweep in in your glittering robes
and show all men what they are.

My Sparrow Tongue Sings Praises (For His Loyal Love Endures Forever) (03/29/2019)

I.

Jehovah saw the good in me,
for his loyal love endures forever.
He roused me with his discipline,
for his loyal love endures forever.
All those he loves he scourges,
for his loyal love endures forever.
He cast me out of the congregation,
for his loyal love endures forever.
Now I begin to know him,
for his loyal love endures forever.
My eyes can now see my Father,
for his loyal love endures forever.
My ears have been unstopped,
for his loyal love endures forever.
My heart leaps for joy,
for his loyal love endures forever.
My sparrow tongue sings praises,
for his loyal love endures forever.
I sing out from the branches:
"his loyal love endures forever!"
My feet grasp the branches of his holy mustard tree,
for his loyal love endures forever.
He shades me from the fiery sun,
for his loyal love endures forever.
He protects me from the roaring winds,
for his loyal love endures forever.
The bountiful leaves swallow rain and hail,
for his loyal love endures forever.
In all my ways may I take notice of him,
for his loyal love endures forever.

II.

Jehovah, please, hold me close,
for your loyal love endures forever.
I was a fleshly fool!
Your loyal love endures forever.
I did what was gross and obscene before you.
Your loyal love endures forever.
But see now how I have changed!
Your loyal love endures forever.
Every day I rise and consider your word,
for your loyal love endures forever.
I pray to you to help me understand,
for your loyal love endures forever.
Search through me and know me,
for your loyal love endures forever.
See if there is within me any harmful thoughts,
for your loyal love endures forever.
Help me to remove those thoughts, O Jehovah,
for your loyal love endures forever.
Help me to replace them with thoughts of peace,
and not of calamity,
for your loyal love endures forever.
Teach me to call out to you in trueness,
for your loyal love endures forever.
May my feet never leave these branches,
for your loyal love endures forever.
Here I fear none except you,
for your loyal love endures forever.
May I live to see the new scrolls opened,
for your loyal love endures forever.
May I read them and inculcate them in my heart,
for your loyal love endures forever.

O Jehovah, my Father, Father of All,
Holiest of Holy Ones,
slow to anger and compassionate,
good and ready to forgive,
may I never leave the path of the righteous again.
May I see your new world and endure forever,
for your loyal love endures forever!

Tears of One Awoken (03/29/2019)

"With ropes of love I have drawn you to me;
I have lifted you out of the pit.
For even in the depths of your brazen conduct
I could see a heart rightly disposed,
and oh how I longed to see you return to me,
leaving aside your disgusting practices
and turning your attention to things pure and upright and good.

Your conscience had severely dulled,
and only here or there did it stab you with guilt.
Alone you would not have broken free.
I could see the war in you,
for you wished to do good
but at the same time lusted like a mere animal,
a stallion after mares, a bull after cows,
a bull running to the slaughter day and night.

And so I knew I had to act.
You were asleep, drugged with lust,
and there was only one thing
I had not yet tried in order to wake you.
Though it hurt me (for know that I love you),
I could not allow your leaven any longer
within my holy congregation.

You know the rest, my son,
how with a heavy heart I handed you over to Satan,
hoping that you would awake.
And now I am all joy,
for you have awoken,
and day by day you rub the sleep from your eyes,
poring over my word and cleansing your path.

Please, keep me before you always,
and it will go well with you.
Pummel your body and lead it as a slave,
namely, a slave to me and to righteousness.
Do not allow yourself to slip back into sleep,
for to sleep again would be your end.
Continue on the path of what is right,
and soon you will be with
your brothers and sisters once more.

Though I handed you over to Satan,
you have come back to me with tears,
true tears, tears of one awoken,
tears of one born again, confused and scared,
and I eagerly took you in."